I’m beginning to think that I don’t deal well with change anymore. I’ve got something like 37 days left until graduation, and I am nervous as can be, stressed beyond belief, and confused like you wouldn’t believe. I need to start applying for jobs, but I also need to get my resume right and looking good. I also have to decide what jobs I want to apply for, that’s my biggest stress and confusion right now. I just don’t know what jobs I want to apply for. I know three things that I want to do in my “career” I just don’t know what I want to do while I get to it. It would be nice to be able to start right out of college doing what I aim to do, but with what I want to do it’s just not entirely possible. I want to write magazine articles, and yes I do have some that I am working on. I also want to get out this extremely involved story that I have in my head; which I think could turn into a novel or two. But I also love to research family trees. I’ve been working on mine for years, and after three computer crashes hopefully this time I can get it right. I managed to save a bunch of pictures, now I just have to see if I saved the correct file onto a disk so I can transfer it and continue. If not, then I have a bunch of it printed out I just have to type it all in again, and be sure to save it to a disk in case of another computer crash!! I would love to get paid to dig up family histories, and help write them up, it’s fun, and interesting!! I don’t know I’ll figure something out at some point, or maybe the powers that be will see it in their hearts to have mercy on me and help me land my dream job, or let me win the lottery so that I can pay off all my bills, buy a new truck and house, and start doing the family tree thing!! That would be nice, and it never hurts to dream!!